The one good thing in my life i keep constantly fucking it up. I’m destroying the one person who truly loves and cares about me. Maybe I’m scared, but thats just an excuse, and I will not make excuses anymore. I’m done. I highly doubt it, but if she decides to give me another chance…I will ensure that nothing i do will hurt her, even in the tiniest way. She deserves so much better than the way i am treating her. I’m supposed to be the one making her happy and all i’ve been doing lately is the exact opposite. It’s ridiculous and unacceptable and will stop here. I refuse to be the reason she cries anymore, i’m tired of letting her down and she that look in her eyes that makes me want to kill myself. But i refuse to give up. Its time I man up, grow some balls, and be the guy she needs in her life, because i am diffrent i love her more than anyone else and that will never change. She’s my baby, my little mouse, my Pebbles. She’s been through too much already to have me just making it worse. So this is it. My stupidity ends here. For my sake and for hers. I love her too much to let this happen again, and i know i’ve said it before, so I’m giving you proof not promises. I love you. 

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